Long-Distance Marriage. How Long?

There he goes again..

Husband went back to HisLand just now.I shed my tears easily every time we have to say goodbye. I hate Sunday.How long do we have to to do this? I have no answer to that Q yet.. ( I wish I have..)
Last few weeks, one on my colleague decided to leave the company and move to Australia. He secured himself with a better offers there etc2..
Anyway, he asked me "What's your plan? Are you moving there? You should. HisLand got lot of opportunities what?" bla bla bla..
I simply said " I don't know yet..Maybe I'll move there..or he'll move to KL" I don't have the exact answer to this kindda question. There would be several options but it's really depends on several factors. 

I wish to skip this part of my life and fast forward to "Husband and me living together in slow mode" part. The clock is ticking.. second by second as I typed all this words.. moving way too fast. 




I wish Husband is here with me now, comforting me in his hug. 
I hate Sunday.

My weight issue

During my high school (musical) year, every time I asked people to guess what i weighed, most of them will definitely gave me way too far figures and it was usually lesser than my real weight. And when I revealed the truth, they will said "oo.. tulang ko besor kot ( you might have big bones ), ko tinggi la ( you are tall?) , tak nampak ko gemuk pun ( you doesn't not looked that fat!!)", etc2..

I've always been in the " big but not fat (BBNT)" group. You dun looked fat, since you've height and it balanced your look well, bla bla. I weighed almost 55+kg when i was in FORM FIVE but I still looked ok.. tak percaya? Hear this...I showed Husband a photo of mine (with a bunch of girl) taken during my high school graduation ceremony, and he could not figured out which one is ME.. hehe..

But I truly gained weight when I was studying in UTP. Back then, I started to slowly developed my appetites when I hanged out with one of my girlfriends and we always 'tapau (take away)' our lunch and dinner from 'kopetro cafe' together. She used to double her chicken wings, drumstick, ikan, chicken burger, banjo.. etc2.. and she maintained in her size hehe .She influenced me lots hehe I really loved to eat during that time.. Nasi hujan panas, mee jawa, roti canai pakcik Ali, ikan keli masak cili, etc2.. I ended up with 78kg. period.

(After 4 years of studying, I became closer with my now Husband, and I managed to lost about 10-15 kgs, fluctuating until my first working year...then... here come another story about my long weary struggle with my weight...;p) 

Today I’ve decided to change my life.Yes, I want to change my life. I want to have a better life and a better health.

Husband said that I must decide to change first and the rest will follow. I guess that was a crucial part of the whole thing.

I want to get rid those negative feelings which been bugging me for almost a year. I want to loose some extra kgs that I’ve been carrying around with me lately. I know it suppositiously sounded but I will give it a try anyway.

I want to be a better ME. 

I believed I have to start with my weight loss program. huhu..

Get back into my normal size! I really want to fit into my office wear back ( I miss them so much!). I’m tired of wearing the same cloth for every week. Badly need a wardrobe makeover but I just have to stop buying new cloths and start using my old ones. 

And to be able to do that, I really need to lose some weight.

You'll get back your health once your BMI is right on track rite? ;)

I'm doing this for my Husband (lil confession..) Husband never made any bad complaints about me, about my size.(for time being...=p)

Thank you for your patience dear. Get ready for the new ME. =p